Hey Guys...

Sebastian, you told me you wanted me to be happy, so I wanted to write this to you for the world to see, ok kiddo?

All I can say is that maybe one day I will, but I want all 3 of you to know that there are all kinds of happy out there. This is my one and only life, and you guys own 110% of it, and it's a great and short and terrible and endless thing...and none of us come out of it alive. I don't have a plan yet boys, but it's time I laugh again, I think I deserve that. So I am going back where I started, maybe that's how I will understand everything again and get happy again, you know, all this hurt and distance is doing something for me, it's bringing me back from the dead. I promise you I will be happy, because at the end of the day, I have you 3, and that makes me very, very happy, more than words can say. But I also want you to promise me one thing, promise me that whenever you guys are sad, or unsure or losing faith, you''ll try to see yourself through my eyes and see how amazing and precious and smart you guys are.

So with that, I leave this song to you guys...and always know that I am here...love you boys. The lyrics will follow the song so you can sing along.

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world alive

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive

So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world alive

He says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right

He says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
Yeah should be alright